Repented of Salvation Ambition: Remembering We Sow, He Grows

Just as you do not know the path of the wind and how bones are formed in the womb of the pregnant woman, so you do not know the activity of God who makes all things.” (Ecclesiastes 11:5)

My son recently lost his first tooth! When it was first loose I asked him if he wanted us to pull it out and he gently replied,

“No mama, I want don’t want anyone to mess with it. I want it to come out when it’s time.”

Those last few words stayed in my heart: “when it’s time…”

I thought of how I usually don’t ‘wait’ for the appointed time whatever ‘it’ is.  I’m usually eager to get ‘it’ done! It is from this habit I have another confession…


I can become easily distracted and try to rush the salvation of others.

I never thought witnessing could turn into selfish ambition but it can—I now call it “salvation ambition.”  I realize it’s harder with my family because I want them to know God and Jesus Christ so badly, I sometimes over step my boundaries by looking away from Jesus Christ to myself or to their walks with Him.  I anxiously want to know my role, my part in their salvation.

I receive God’s gentle correction when I read John 21:1-23:

Peter had just told Jesus he loved Him and was given instructions to tend and shepherd the lambs and sheep of Jesus Christ and to FOLLOW JESUS but Peter still asks:

Lord, who is the one who betrays You?….Lord, and what about this man?” (20,21)

Peter gets distracted…

What was Jesus’ response?

“…If I want him to remain until I come, what is that to you? You follow Me!”

God has been using these passages for the past 2 years to help discipline my walk with Him and stop looking at the walks of others.  Jesus is the path—the Way the Truth and the Life and I need to watch Him and do not look to the left or right but keep my eyes fixed on Him, the Author and Perfecter of faith.

Examining and ‘judging’ the walks of others in my flesh has been a temptation and distraction and I repent…that is one of the reasons I am off Facebook.  God has convicted me to put my face in His book and write about my faith in a book for my children {my journal} to share the stones of remembrances He has given our family.

God has reminded me my role in evangelism and making disciples is to share the Gospel, tend His sheep and lambs, and follow Him.

As I follow Jesus Christ, will there be distractions? Yes! They come in many forms; one for me is selfish ambition.  For example I want my children to be saved.  I ask Jesus, ‘will they be the ones to betray You?”  Jesus responds, “If I want {them} to remain until I come, what is that to you? You follow Me!”

I humbly say to my Savior since nothing is hidden from Him:

But I’m their mama and I love them, and their salvation matters to me because I want them to love and know You, I want them to live with you forever.” There was the selfish “salvation ambition”:

I. Want.

Jesus Christ reminds me the cost of being His disciple:

“…If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me.”  Matthew 16:24

Did you catch that? BEFORE I can FOLLOW Jesus Christ I must deny myself…take up my cross (crucify myself) THEN Follow Him.  That means deny my ‘selfish ambitions.’

I ask God, “what about when you say to make disciples of all nations?”

He reminds me the making of disciples is not done in my strength but true disciple making is done in His power, the power of His Holy Spirit.  He can use me when I am obedient and empty myself and am filled with His Spirit.  When I am His vessel filled with His Spirit my utterances are His; I don’t move until He tells me to move.

I have a new perspective…

·         My vision is Jesus Christ

·         My goal is obedience to God

·         The strategy: The Holy Spirit

The goal is not forcing salvation on others like my children, the goal is obeying Jesus Christ by humbling myself everyday and following Him.

I must follow Jesus Christ, listen to Him, trust and obey Him so that I can tend the lambs (my children) He has given me and I can intercede and pray for them and ask God to give me opportunities to share the Gospel in deed and truth with them, knowing only He enlightens people, and shines into their hearts giving them understanding of His Word.  Only He draws others to Himself.  God does use human vessels (believers) but it is done in His strength so that the “surpassing greatness of the power will be of God and not from ourselves”.

So what is my assignment?

The truth is, God wants them to come to Him too {Matthew 18:14; 2 Peter 3:9;}. I need to trust in God, hope in Him, wait on His timing and be patient and pray. When the opportunity to be the hands and feet and mouth of Jesus Christ comes I am compelled to sow and water the seeds as He leads praying He will cause a growth.

Jesus I am resting, resting…

So then neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but God who causes the growth. Now he who plants and he who waters are one; but each will receive his own reward according to his own labor. For we are God’s fellow workers; you are God’s field, God’s building.” 1 Corinthians 3:7-9

About altarofheaven

My name is arcelia. I love, worship and revere God. Since 2009 I have been enJOYing the peace with God I have through Jesus Christ. I'm learning to listen and respond to His voice through His Word and convictions of the Holy Spirit in this midst of this chaotic and distracting world. I am a broken redeemed healed vessel, joyously drawing water from the Spring of salvation pouring out in God's strength by His Spirit for His glory. "May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all." 2 Corinthians 13:14 View all posts by altarofheaven

8 responses to “Repented of Salvation Ambition: Remembering We Sow, He Grows

  • beingtransformedwife

    Amen! Amen! Amen! What truths to remember and live by. Look, obey, and wait. Thank you for always sharing in such an inspiring way. Love you!


  • illumylife by Joy

    Waiting for Him in His time, that’s a hard one and one I’m constantly having to remind myself to do. Wonderful words of wisdom here. Thanks.


  • Anna Thornton

    I love that you precious Arcelia “are” my as iron sharpens iron friend,daughter,sister and fellow bondservant of Jesus Christ – I love how you SHARE your HEART in His GRACE and His TRUTH and how God in Christ helps you to follow Him and we are His branches and I am so grateful for God’s TRUE VINE.
    Oh come let us ADORE HIM and FOLLOW HIM and LOVE HIM the Lord Jesus CHRIST our REDEEMER who is currently seated at the right hand of our FATHER praying for us and WHO is our TRUE HOPE.
    I join you in PRAYER and as you and I look to the FATHER in heaven to draw our family members to HIMSELF through FAITH in CHRIST our Lord JESUS the WAY to the FATHER,
    it is such a JOY to walk with you in this relationship 🙂 with the only true God .
    I cannot thank our PRECIOUS SAVIOR ENOUGH for allowing us to share in HIS JOY .
    Oh sweet friend in Christ “How great the Father’s love for us …..”
    We get glimpses of HIS mercy and grace and we LOVE HIM in response to HIS kindness …….so glad you share what the Lord our God is teaching you my fellow sojourner in this life of FAITH here and now and by GOD’S GRACE also in the life to come 🙂 I love you so much 🙂


    • altarofheaven

      Oh come let us adore Him! Holy, Holy, Holy, is the Lord, none is more worthy than the Lamb of God Jesus Christ who took away the sins of the world!

      I can’t describe how thankful I am for your love and obedience to our Father…God has drawn my family to Himself and we could not resist Him and we are thankFULLL He sent you to our family to pray for and with. He sent you to mentor, disciple, teach, train me to love my husband and children and be a worker at home. You prayed, God did the transformation before our eyes {I’m still in awe}

      I miss you so much and I LOVE LOVE LOVE you my precious Anna…the one with the radical faith and love for Jesus Christ that made me squirm at first then had me call you blessed {one to be envied}. I’m thankful we can sit at His feet staying low together.


  • altarofheaven

    **Dear readers, when I wrote this almost three years ago I was off of FB for a season. I still take fasting breaks from FB from time to time when I begin to see I am distracted. I’m currently back on for now but I still take breaks to ensure my eyes are on Christ** Thank you for reading 😉


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